um.....yea I have no idea how to spell any of this tonight. to be honest Ive had an interesting day. Im a little drunk. I just cought myself dancing to a song that I was singing to my self....I think I wrote it somewhere too. its kinda a sad song.....

so today I was talkint to people and pelple talked to me. and....... I had to take my sisters to a holloween party so I put some stuff on to go. I wore eye liner....sadly...I think it looks ok on me....but I dont think I want to keep wearing it all the time. maybe Ill wear it some times just to piss off my step dad.

ive been feelling really lost lately. and I cant cincentrate on anything.

um so yea I got drunk because of the stuff thats been going on I think I said already and cath has said. i already read and commented on her journal......I also had an old freind proclaim her love to me today...and Im very protective of her....shes in some trouble and Im in histerics cuz I want to protect her but I cant because im too far away. I find it interesting that she is in love eiht me and has been for so long tho becasue I used to really really like her. but because of my morals my "honor" I dindt. ( I have no reall honor I dont deserve her I should really only be used for advice or protection) u.mmmmmmmmm

and I got drunk because I found this really good rum....the whol pottle has been gone for about and hour now. oh look at that I typed alot ok ummmmmmmmmmmm........
'I think thats it really... oh no its not... ok my manga after it being torn up I stoped doing it at page five but I was actualy designing the whole time so I have some good stuff for it.......and ......it got lost but I found it again....what liuck rite?.... ok im done om not gonna type any more....